Day 7 and 8

Day 7

I was telling you that I had an appointment for a training session after work, but she canceled on me so picked up the boys and did some window shopping. I found a great deal at Walmart for buy one game get one half off so I felt like that was a sign from GOD to just be like just get them something and it will all work its self out. So I went home messed around on the computer for awhile and my hubby came home and we went to the store and did a LITTLE Christmas shopping. My hubby and I just got the boys a couple of games and action figures. But I feel a lot better; I was really feeling bad about not getting them something. So I had to put a bill or two on the back burner. When I got home I was suffering from buyers’ remorse and did not feel like working out. I just wanted to sleep the guilt of being irresponsible off.

Day 8

I woke up in the middle of the night out of a deep sleep to find out it was only 2am and I was sleep for only and hour but I felt so refreshed like I had slept hours. I got down on my knees and prayed to God to just help me let go. I played on YouTube for about an hour or so and felt sleepy, so back to sleep I went.

My hubby woke me up to say goodbye as he was off to work! I do not know what it was but I just felt better! I felt relaxed. My neck was not hurting and I did not have the headache I usually wake up with. I did not go through the list while I laid in the bed like I usually do every morning. (Do I have gas in my car? Do I have enough money just in case I don’t have gas? I have to wash clothes? I need to clean the bathrooms? I need to vacuum? What am I going to wear to work? Are there dishes in the sink? Is it trash day? Did they take the trash out? How many days til Friday? And the list goes on!!!) Nope I just hopped out of bed did my morning duties. I put on some work out clothes. Drunk down a quick 16 oz of water and got it in!! I did 30 mins on the elliptical, then I did 8 rounds of jump roping, then 6 rounds of abs then did 37 straight sit ups. A friend of mind said she is trying to do 100 straight and she is already up to 74. I told her I’m coming for her!! LOL

Well I planned on working out on my lunch break but I did not get to do it my co-worker needed to go out for lunch so I gave her a ride and took a lot longer than I planned. But I did not mind she always does stuff for me so it was cool. I was supposed to meet with someone tonight for a training session but she had to cancel scheduling conflict. I don’t mind I know that this time of the year is busy for people. So we are going to meet up tomorrow. So when I get home I am run through a new set of exercises I have been working on, or see if my friend is busy and go hang out with her. I will be training her for two days a week after the New Year!! It almost time for me to blow this popsicle stand.. LOL I wish me luck I want to get at least 45 mins of activity tonight!!

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Kisses and Misses

Day 6 and 7

The rest of day 6

Well I told you all I was thinking about going to Air-obics and I did I went and got my jump on for 1 hour and I even taught the warm up. I was so nervous on the microphone. Everyone was looking at me waiting for me to tell them what to do next. LOL But it was fun!! I think I am ready for the big show. Next year I will be an instructor for maybe 2 more class a week. I am excited but I need to work on my fitness so I can make it all the way through the class with as much energy as I started the class with. But anyway my hubby and the boys joined me at the Jump place. But they did not take the class with me. They just jumped and flipped about on together. Then we stopped by my aunt’s house to see them. Its been awhile. I miss my cousins little boys soooo much they are so cute. I have to say that was a great day!!!

Day 7

This morning no work out for me my son had a doctor’s appointment that lasted way to long. His appointment was at 8:20am and did not finish until 10:45am. That pissed me right off early in the morning. But I was still okay. Dropped the boys off to see and spend the day with my husband’s dad. So I headed off to work. I get a call from my son pharmacy and his medicine is $55!! I’m like really!! Why me!! This just does not make any sense at all!!I can not catch a break. So it’s like what to do!!

Well I have not worked out yet. But I have to train someone tonight so that will be a work out and then I will work out when I get home. I have to start back eating right as well. But being broke it’s hard, I either don’t eat or eat what ever I can. But I have to try harder. Because I feel better when I’m fit!! Well wish me luck on my night going as planned!! :)

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Day 3,4, 5, and 6

Day 3,4, 5, and 6

Well let me update you the rest of my Friday. So as I told you I had to drop my car off at the shop and what I was hoping to be a minor repair ENDED up not being so minor! So I went from being in a great mood to super sad border line DEPRESSED. I sadly did not work out at all that day I could not find the energy. I felt as if had been hit in the stomach 1,001 times and this was the final blow. I knew that we were at the bottom building our way back up. After Friday I felt that we fell about 5 more feet into a deeper hole. We are already playing caught up and now we had to fix this car and it just made matters even worst. ((crying)) 

So I laid down Friday night feeling weak and defeat. I felt broken and no one could fix it. I cried and cried and pray to just let it all be over with that I was not strong enough to continue to fight a losing battle. I felt that my son would be better off with out me dragging him down in this mess with me. But I woke up in the arms of my love. He held me tight and after he felt me move. He whispered I’m right here and it will be okay. I do not know why but whenever he says that. I feel that it will be he seems so sure about it. He has no question in his voice. It is like he can see in the future and he just knows. He pulled me in even closer and before I know it our hearts started to beat at the same time as one like our bodies are have their own conversation I felt completely at ease and fell back asleep.

Day 4

I still felt a bit sadden about the situation. But I felt a little better. I still had a million things going through my head what about this what about that, how are we going do this and make through that. Still no morning exercise. I did my homework and caught up on the class room discussions. My holiday party for my job was at 3pm so I had to do some running around before I had to get dress for that. I had got my stepSON a cell phone but it was working properly and I need to find out what was going on with it. After I did my running around I took the boys to hang out with their Uncle Adrian for a while, so we could go to my works’ holiday party. 

After, I got dolled up for my holiday party and my moms’ dinner we head out. We arrived at my holiday party after a 45 min drive and I was disappointed it was not a dinner or a party at all. They closed out a bar area and had veggies trays and you had to buy your own drinks. Not even a free drink, or free soda of tea. I do not drink anymore so it really did not bother me. But it was a waste of drive, and time. I did get to see my friend Jenelle she moved to a different location, and I miss her so much it was great seeing her! But I did not know anyone, but her, my boss, and a couple of the other people that work at my location, so it was awkward. We left after an hour. 

I headed to my mommy’s dinner at the hash house! I had a blast that took my mind off of everything I been worrying about. 

My mom and I

My cousin brought me dinner, and we laugh and talked I enjoyed every moment of it!! 

My cousin and I

They cousin gave me a ride home to my mister that was waiting for me. I watched him play his game we thought about stepping out but instead we stayed in and enjoyed each others company and got some much needed rest. Sadly I still did no working out.

Day 5

Sunday morning, I still in depress mode. I got up and I wanted to work out but I laid back down and watched football with my honey! The Panthers vs. the Texans and it was a great game. The Panthers won, so we were HAPPY 28 to 13!! I am so in love with me some Cam Newton. 

Superman Newton

 He is has such a pretty smile!! The day kind of flew by we pick up the boys went window shopping at Walmart. I need a new ball and I want a sparring kit and a punching bag. So I went a looked at prices. Then we rode around to some other place and I just enjoyed my kids and hubby. We ended up coming home and I did not feel like working out I did my homework and checked on the class discussion, and I called it a GOODNIGHT!!

Day 6

Well today I am feeling better!! But still I did not work out this morning. I plan on working out tonight when I get home. I am thinking of going to Air-obics, but I am not sure. We will see how the day goes…

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Kisses and Misses

Day 2 and 3

Closing my day 2 I did everything and a little bit more. I worked out on my lunch break I got in 50 mins of cardio and an ab work out. Showered up and back to work. I was lucky and got off a little early so that gave me ahead start on my night to get things in!! I have not been able to contribute to a Friday snack day in a while at work so I decided to be nice and make the staff lunch. I went by the store and got what I need to make brownies and can home. I start to make my spaghetti and then when I had everything going I was ready to create my brownies then I find out I DID NOT HAVE FREAKING OIL.. MAN!!! So instead I made cookies. I finished up the dinner I was creating for the staff at work. And I clean up my kitchen. Then called my son down and fed him, we had a little convo watched some TV and sent him off to bed and then I GOT MY WORK OUT on.

After my wonderful work out, I got a call from my BESTfriend/sista, cousin Charo. We had a much need convo and while I chatted away with her I cleaned up the rest of the house. I ended the convo with my love and started on my homework. I complete a few task on my school to do list then got bored. ADHD (Joking) then started to Google and Facebook. I Googled all kinds of crazy stuff.. songs, people, just up till 3 am for no reason.

Ok so one thing that I did Google that really took me for a loop.  Why in the heck does 

Zooey Deschanel

Zooey and Katy

Zooey Deschanel (from The New Girl, which by the way I so love!!! Sucha cute little show!! ) looks just like Katy Perry, and then they look like Emily Blunt what the confusion!! Lol But I still adore Katy Perry. She is by far my favorite then on to Zooey Deschanel. 

Emily Blunt

Once my Lovee got home he made me close my laptop and cuddle up and go to sleep.

Day 3

Well since I went to bed at about 3:30am almost 4am. Waking up and exercising was OUT OF THE QUESTION!!! So I go up ran around the house like a craziest women at 6pm to get out of the house and follow my love to drop our car off at the shop. But made it to work a little late but still in a great mood and ready for the day and night to come!! Toooooo beeeeee continued.. lol

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Kisses and Misses

Day 1 and 2 of my 30 day challenge

Well I have been working out again I just finished my first 30 day challenge and now I am on to the next and this time I decide to share it will the “world”. Yesterday was day number 1. I started out at 138.0 and I am getting a tad bit frustrated with my weight lost!! I just want it gone I am mad that I let it come back. I have been in such a blue mood. I am not sure what to say about me.

Well on my day one I told myself I would get up and work out at 4am, but yea no it did not happen I rolled and went back to sleep. Then I received a nice little reminder text my friend Jenelle telling me to get up!! So I did. I did a nice little work out nothing major, and then off to work. I worked out on my lunch break a nice 45 mins of cardio and abs, and it felt GREAT!! I love working out. I just have so much going on mentally that I am so tried most of the times. I just can not find the time to do a “real” work out. I like to work out for an hour or two!! I hate quick unfocused work outs. I want to kill it!! I like to feel like I was at war and I just won a battle!!

Today is day two and I work up this morning and I worked on my school work. No working out and I am a little down. I spoke with son yesterday about the absence of Christmas in our home this year and ask him if he was mad at me. My son replied that he was not mad just sad. He did not do his best this year, but not bad enough to not get a gift. With those few words I felt sadder than I did in the first place. I tried to explain to an eleven year old child that it is not because of you that I am unable to buy you gifts it is because of our live decisions, bills and everyday commitments that he have, and just no extra money. I felt like CRAP! He gives me a hug and tells me he loves me and he was going to bed he was tried. I cried and cried and cried some more. I was too tired to do anything last night after that so I just went to sleep. 

I woke with all the same things on my plus a million more. So I did not feel like working out. I did bring my gym bag to work so I plan on getting in a full 45 mins of cardio and 15 mins of abs today at work. I also plan on doing body combat at home for 45 mins and then 30 mins of legs. So pray for me to fit it all in tonight plus home work cooking dinner and washing clothes and cleaning house.

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Busy busy mommy!!!

Well the past few weeks have been busy!!!

I started school.. Yes I did!!! I'm very proud of myself. I think this time I pick a degree program that I will enjoy in a career.. I am a certified MA.. I'm a people person and love to help people.. So I thought it would be the career goal for me but after a year and half of working for a doctor with a REAL attitude problem everyday driving home in tears... my love for helping people and working for the devil had to end or I would!!

And now I'm working sorta still in the field of helping people but more in the customer service part of the field and not so hands on with the people as I would like to and the stress of this job is now starting to creep up on me... I live with a headache its very stressful!!!! So I have decided to deal with it for a while and Take my AA while I figure out if Human Services is the field for me. I have been through a lot in my sort spam of my life. I have been abandon, homeless, beating, abused, and a single young mother. With no guidance thing look so scary and you do not know which way to run. I wanna be that voice of reason, the one to help get someone out of the dark and brought to the light.

Well also I've started to work out again!! Yay!!! Go me!! WOOT WOOT.. I've been doing PT for my knee its ruff/ tuff but I'm feeling better already. Beside the lack of sleep and the headaches.. I'm good.. So I started hiking and I love it!!!! I can't wait until Saturday mornings now so I can get up and hit the trail!! My cousin was my fearless leader the first hike I took.. and he had a great time! Got a little lost and it was still a blast. The next hike I was on the my own with son and his sister.

Well I be back in the gym come Saturday after my hike so I will keep my readers updated with my progress with the new me in the making. The INSIDE and the OUTSIDE..

I have also picked up a new habit I have been baking and cooking as well!! So new blogs and pics to come with my new adventures..

Until I write again, Until you read again,
Kisses and Misses