I have already told you that NUMBER 13 is my lucky number because so many wonderful people in life was born on that day... My son is one of those WONDERFUL people..
My Birthday Boy
Today my son turned 11 years old!! I'm happy and sad its bitter and sweet.. But its time I allow him to grow up, and change into the man that God wants him to be..
My son and I have a unique story... We have made it through the storm forever change and for the better.. I was a young parent... 20 years old when I had my son and at the time total over whelmed not sure what a mom should do, and not sure if I even wanted to be a "mom"
I was alone in Vegas with no where to stay running around from place to place job to job.. No real choice... living off others and just hoping life fixed its self... Going back and forth with my Ex boyfriend I ended up pregnant.. Now I'm homeless and pregnant.. WHAT THE HELL NOW... is all I could think... Some one helped me find an apartment and final I had my own spot with out a lick of furniture just a radio and a air mattress and my 8 month baby baking in my oven.. It was rough but honestly my child save me... People say you have to love a child a child doesn't know what love is... I can tell you that I believe that to be untrue.. My son LOVED me from the day I brought him home.. I wasn't for sure about the baby thing.. didn't want to hold him or lay with him the first few days.. and some how he would end up right under me.. when I would cry and try to think why I got my self in this mess he would look at me and smile.. I knew I really didn't feel so much love until I held him and after about day 3 we have been locked together everyday since then!!! I couldn't imagine my life with out him..
He is my little man.. He's never been a kid kid, always a small adult I grew him up fast but that's life for you and I don't regret it.. I have and amazing kid because of it...
Son, I thank you for being the best kid a mother could ask for and I pray you continue to make me proud and grow into a wonderful MAN!! Son, you have made me into a better woman, you have taught me so much and I continue to learn from you.. You have always kept me safe and had my back!! I love you SOOOOO much...
5th grade grad
his photo shoot.. he made take a pic
my grad and he was so proud of me
My lovee!!
My baby
At the park
a new year with my love
actin silly
US
Thanks for reading...
Until I write again, Until you read again,
Kisses and Misses
I have not wore my REAL hair since high school.. Maybe a couple times after high school but this EVERY day thang, yes thang is killing me SHEESH!!! I had so many hair styles...
braids
Curls
Soft curl
Long and wavy
Ponytail
Flip
short and sassy
Wet and short
same
CURLY and LONG loved it
A longer A line cut..
I have had so many hair styles over the years.. I'm new to the girly girl thing... I have always had to do everything rushed and quick when I was single and had my son and a job, so clipping on a ponytail and hiding my hair in a bun underneath it simple and easy..Just like I like it.. and then after getting married I still didn't know how to do my hair and didn't want to do my hair so I got it style by someone else every week to two weeks.. unless I had braids or twist...
And now with cutting back on things... I choose to keep my gym membership and lose the extra stuff.. Nail, pedi, eyebrows, HAIR... I have to suffer with combing and styling my hair every morning.. I'm getting better than I was at the beginning.. Its actually in a nice little hair cut.. and I love the look on me.. Its just harder than going to the beauty salon sitting in a seat and letting the pampering start.. :)
My hubby loves my hair he hate the "Fake" hair that I used to wear in my hair.. So that's one plus... it makes him happier.. Its just alot of hard work, but the good things DON'T ALWAYS come easy.. :)
So I guess just like everything else you have to weigh the pros and cons..
PROS:
It saves A LOTTA money
Hubby loves it
No more itchy head that can't be scratched
I look younger
Easy come back after a gym work out
No longer will I worry about fitting into any ones schedule
I can go swimming
CONS
I have to do my hair every morning
I don't have the long sexy hair look
I can't change my hair looks
No one else washing and combing my hair
My hair was so full with the "Fake Hair"
Hubby hated it
I look younger
Can't get it wet (some times)
So it looks like Pros win.. LOL
I'll get use to it.. I have to anyways..
The me I must get us to
Like India Arie says...
I am not my hair
I am not this skin
I am not your expectations no no
I am not my hair
I ma not this skin
I am a soul that lives within
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better person?
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better friend? Does the way I wear my hair determine my integrity?
I am expressing my creativity..
