Finally AWAKE!!!

I believe I'm finally awake... I have been trapped in my own UNNECESSARY nightmare that I created for myself.. I previously said that I wanted to start this blog to find the OLD me and I think she was never lost she was here all along..

I was just walking about in "remember when land" and not excepting that this is the NOW, and I need to learn to deal with, except and appreciate the NOW..  I realize that this is not the nightmare constantly comparing my life to the way it was to the way it is was the nightmare.... Things are different and money is tight and life is a lot hard than it use to be.. But I'm happy with my little family, my husband and are closer than we ever was.. He loves his job..
So I have to focus on the positive instead of the negative, Focus on what I have and not what I lost.. So I'm back in the gym no longer praying for a way to find my way back.. I'm smiling more.. and spend more time with my oldest son.. getting a little more sleep.. I can say that I am BACK to the old me hands down.. Now I just need to stay here...


Until I write again, Until you read again,
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